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[Wednesday
February 20th, 2008 at 7:01pm] |
In life you have two loves: one who changes the way you see yourself and the world and the other who puts you back together after you’ve lost the first.
I want to remember how you've made me laugh, and sometimes cry, and I never want to forget how special and different you are. And how you touch my heart in a way that no one else could
Tell me that you've had trouble sleeping.
That you toss and turn from side to side.
That it's my face you've been seeing in your dreams
at night. Tell me that you wake up crying, and you're
not exactly sure why. Tell me that something is
missing in your life. Tell me that it's not just me.
we used to be so close, but now we can
be standing right beside each other
& it feels like we're a million miles apart.
I don`t know what else I can tell you, other than that I can imagine spending the rest of my life with you.
I know that sounds crazy. I know we`re just getting to know each other, & even admitting what I just did
might make you think I`m nuts, but I`ve never been more sure about anything. & if you give me a chance -
if you give us a chance - I`m going to live the rest of my life proving to you that you made the right decision.
I love you. & not just for the person you are, but for the way you make me think that we can be.
There`s always gonna be that one thing you
wish for but never get. That one mistake you
can never take back. & most of all, that one
memory you would do anything for,
just to have it again.
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[Monday
January 22nd, 2007 at 9:51pm] |
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Love is about the fights, the making up, the break-ups, the tears, and the bittersweet memories. It's about the trust, the will to be, the sweet kisses, those beautiful pictures, and "the stop at nothing" to get it back when it's been taken away. It's about not giving up on the one thing that gives you the will the continue...that my friend, is the truest kind of love.
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[Tuesday
January 16th, 2007 at 2:11pm] |
So.
Looks like I have no true friends left.
wow cool.
You talk about all your good friends. Whenever you arent with someone you are talking about them to someone else.
Good luck when they all get sick of it.
I just want 2 friends i can trust.. is that to hard to ask?
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[Wednesday
October 18th, 2006 at 8:26pm] |
I want to go to states.
Please?
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[Sunday
September 17th, 2006 at 7:47pm] |
So I really want to make it to states.
Please?
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[Friday
September 15th, 2006 at 11:27pm] |
" best friends forever" is such a lie.
people change and they grow up.
they realize that the people they thought were always going to be there
walk out the door without even looking back
that the people you thought were never going to dissapoint you,do.
because thats what happens as you grow up
you realize that as people grow up, they change
and sometimes its not for the better.
Smile. It makes a world of difference.
Dance. Who knows when you wontbe able to.
Cry. Holding those emotions in is bad for you.
Kiss. Kisses are the most worderful things in the world.
Laugh. Whats the point in hiding happiness?
Frown. Why not let him know youre unhappy?
Apologize. You dont want to lose friends.
Hug. Theres no better feeling being wrapped up close to someone you love
Live. Because life is everything.
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[Friday
September 8th, 2006 at 8:53pm] |
We need to take a break for a while
It's been so long since I smiled
I don't wanna listen now
Live this day down
With you so drunk and high
So I'll say goodbye
Welcome to nowhere and finding out where it is
And fixing your problems and starting over agin
Your feeding your ego with what you can see outside
And your killing yourself for not speaking your mind
Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm way out of line. I lie to myself all the time. I should have been gone, so long
Ago. would anyone else have known
is it me or is it you, something isn't right
of all the things that we could do we just wanna fight
someday i will find the courage to embrace you
someday i will find the strength to erase you
I can't seem to get my heart over you
Cause you creep into everything I do
And now I'm dying to know
How he touches you
Convince me
Because I really need your help
Oh convince me
Because I can't see this for myself
I'll put the emphasis on the evidence
Begging for the proof
Sometimes the hardest thing to believe is the truth
we control the chaos
in the back of our minds
our problems seem so small
but they grow on us like gravity
but gravity makes us fall
I've thrown away
the hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
so many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
the secret to find an end to this
and I just pray
my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
Every friendship has an experation date
But I know I'm not ready for ours
where you are the one, the one that lies close to me
whispers, "hello, i've missed you quite terribly"
i fell in love, in love with you suddenly
now theres no place else i can be but here in your arms
-- Here in Your Arms, Hellogoodbye
Sometimes as I lie on the floor in the dark by the phone waiting for his call, I try to figure out what in the hell had gotten into me.
Have another drink and drive yourself home
I hope there's ice on all the roads
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
and again when your head goes through the windshield
I wish I could find people who just would fight me and break through to me and hold me down and scream their life into my face
I'm extremely honest,i may say things that affend you
i might say the stupidest thing you have ever heard.
i want to find someone who will love that.
She smokes ciggareates to make it through her day.
If you ask her how she is, she lie and say that she is okay.
But nothing can b r e a k her,
she won’t let there words break her because she figures
that she might as well live life to the fullest
because highschool will end,
and she always has her friends.
If I push you away
it’s not because I don’t need you
or you want you because I do.
It’s because I need you to prove to me
that you need me and that you want me
in your life and that
you will do something to put me there
love isn't a decision,
it's a feeling.
if we decided who we loved,
it would be much simpler,
but much less magical.
all love stories have one thing in common:
you have to go against the odds to get there,
and work for what you want.
don't know if there's one person you're supposed to be with...
but when i'm with you,
lying around watching re-runs of our favorite show,
&laughing over ice cream,
it sure feels that way
When I'm lying in your bed play the motions through my head
you know that I'm thinking, I'm thinking...
and I have reasons to believe that
I'm not the only one you spend this time with
[Smile In Your Sleep: Silverstein]
Tonight, they're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light.
And blinding our hearts with their shining lies,
while closing our caskets cold and tight.
But I'm dying to live.
[Several Ways To Die Trying: Dashboard Confessional]
Weekends are for the warriors
All those late nights walking through front doors at daybreak
Raise all, of the glasses high
This one's to all of us sitting around here on Friday night
I remember eighteen
Hated Mondays
And sitting and staring at the clock dying to get away
Don't look back
And have no regrets
We only got two days and time won't wait for us
Dr. House: No, there is not a thin line between love and hate. There is, in fact, a Great Wall of China with armed sentries posted every twenty feet between love and hate.
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[Monday
September 4th, 2006 at 12:17am] |
well i guess that you might say
that we've come a long long way
but i say it's too soon to tell
if our scheme will win or fail
so get the toolbox out
it's time to find a way
to fix these broken dreams
-- agent orange
And I could try, but waking up is harder when you wanna die.
When you're broken in a million little pieces and you're tryin but you cant hold on anymore. Every tear falls down for a reason. Don't you stop believing in yourself. When you're broken.
one song can spark a moment.
one tree can start a forest.
one star can guide a ship at sea.
one life can make a difference.
Kaleidoscope of colors
Turning hopes on fire, sun is burning
Shining down on both of us
Don’t let us lose it
forgive me my weakness
but I don’t know why
without you it’s hard to survive.”
sometimes you have to get fucked up to feel sober
cry to see clear & fall down a hundred times
before you learn to pick yourself back up.
music used to be my only freedom,
it would take me away
I could escape from all the harsh realities of the world.
then you came along,
and now every song reminds me of you.”
when you move on, remember me
remember us and how we used to be.
I’ll remember all the laughter
as we go our separate ways.
but there’s so much we’re still learning
and we can’t be afraid.
don’t pretend and don’t ask questions
you know what she wants
and you know you want her too.
I’ve tried getting over you
but nothing works.
there’s someone else now,
and he’s so great, it could turn into something real.
but yours is still the face
I go to bed thinking about
& I don’t hate myself
just the things I do
but I hope you can see
I’m trying to improve.
some blurry half formed picture of some half forgotten friend becomes clear but i can't hold it. it happens in my dreams but i can't remember what it was that meant so much. why do i wake up feeling that i've lost something big? why do i try to hold on to things that don't exist? don't ever try to find something you left behind. don't ever try to make a memory into something. don't ever fool yourself. it always disappears.
pictures are simply memories of who we used to be. looking back on the past i wouldn't change a thing but looking at the present i'm glad i am who i've become.
my ripped jeans,
my stained shoes,
my tear filled eyes,
all for you
and all because of you.
i am your toy,
your doll.
i am the only one always here for you to come back to,
but i'm the only one you can't talk to.
Good morning beautiful
How was your night
Mine was wonderful
With you by my side
And when I open my eyes
And see your sweet face
It's a good morning beautiful day
I didn't see the light
I didn't know day from night
I had no reason to care
But since you came along
I can face the dawn
Cause I know you'll be there
Good morning beautiful - Steve Holy
I fall to pieces
each time I see you again
I fall to pieces
how can I be just your friend?
you want me to act like we've never kissed
you want me to forget, pretend we've never met
and I've tried and I've tried but I haven't yet
you walk by, and I fall to pieces.
Sometimes I feel like throwing you in front of an oncoming train, but then, risk my life to save you.
Trust me, it's paradise. This is where the hungry come to feed. From mine it's a generation that circles the globe in search of something we haven't tried before. So never refuse an invitation, never resist the unfamiliar, never fail to be polite and never outstay the welcome. Just keep your mind and suck in the experience. And if it hurts, you know what, it's probably worth it. You hope and you dream, but you never believe that something is going to happen to you. Not like it does in the movies. And when it actually does, you expect it to feel different, more visceral, more real. I was waiting for it to hit me. And me, I still believe in paradise. But now at least I know its not some place you can look for, cause it's not where you go. It's how you feel for a moment in your life when your a part of something, and if you find that moment... it lasts forever.
We hope and wish to find that special person, that one person who completes us... and it hurts so much when they love someone else. When we finally do get the person of our dreams, they leave sooner or later...gone from our life like a feather floating away never to be seen again. We cry endlessly for many nights, remembering their smile, their kind words, their warm embrace. You can't help but feel joy when you think of their sweet kisses or that special feeling you got whenever you saw them. You dream of them and wake up smiling, until you realize it was only a dream and the closest thing you have to that person are the memories and times you shared, that made it all worthwhile. I guess that's why we torture ourselves with love. -Lisa Gilbert
My life had changed because of you
And I need you right here with me
There's no substitute for you
As far as I can see
You're the one for me
It's amazing what one person can do. Some people build you up just to bend and break you. Some people bring out parts of you that you had no clue existed. All throughout life we meet people and every single one of them brings something to us, gives us some sort of purpose. We come across people that will hurt us so incredibly much that it seems unbearable to go on with our lives, but the truth is - We can overcome anything we want to if we believe in it enough, if we have faith in ourselves, in who we are. The most important thing in life is to find yourself, know who you are at all times and stand by that for the rest of your life. No one has the right to tell you who you are or try and control your life because it's yours. Your life is meant to be lived by no one else but yourself. We sometimes let people get the best of us, destroy us and change our opinions on what we believe is true. Only you can know what is right for yourself, you have the power, you make the choices and you learn. Each experience we go through in life is a lesson to be learned. We all make mistakes, why is that so hard for some to understand? No one should be judged by the mistakes they have made. It's past news. Everything happens for a reason, and without the hard times, how would we ever realize our truth strength? It's only through a time of suffering when we realize how strong we truly are inside, when we realize how much we can actually put up with and deal with before we eventually break. Life is a roller coaster, a never ending cycle. Every person is unique and beautiful in their own way. Each individual has a beauty that is unexpressed. Beauty is within. You love a person for how they make you feel, for their courage and compassion. I believe we always go back to the people that were there in the beginning. You create so much history with certain people, they become a part of you, they're in your heart. Even though miles may seperate you and maybe you have even grown apart, there are those certain people that will somehow always be in your heart forever.
-Ali Kramer
I learned that the greatest thing about high school isnt the parties or the drinking or the hook-ups... It's the friendships which means taking chances. I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about. I learned that letters from friends are the most important thing, And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But, basically, I just learned that my friends Both OLD & NEW Are the most important people to me in the world And without them, I wouldn't be who I am today. So this is a thank you to all of my friends For always being there and I love you.
If you avoid certain situations because you're worried about the outcome, you never get to learn what would have happened if you had faced those situations. You deprive yourself of the chance to see how you would have coped. When you decide to avoid, you experience a temporary state of relief, but you're also left feeling powerless and deflated, as if you can't control your own behavior. Eventually you become discouraged and disheartened as a vague sense of feeling paralyzed sets in. This is how avoidance slowly eats away your self-confidence over time... Push yourself to feel vulnerable- this allows you to learn that you can handle whatever happens, and that even the most difficult of emotions can't destroy you. We're all capable of feeling intense fear so we can escpape life-threatening situations... But usually people avoid things that simply make them feel uncomfortable.
I don't want you to love me for my eyes or my personality or the way I laugh.
I don't want you to love me because I'm so different from everyone else you've met.
I want you to love me for me.
And I want it to be a love that is true and real and not something that exists purely because you're lonely and need someone.
love & heartache.
a writer's 2 best friends.
Never will I forget you, and all the memories past,
So rarely I get to see your face,
Growing I looked to you in guidance.
We knew that time would kill us, but you're still so close to me,
To me you were my life,
To me you were my soul companion,
Now you are so far away,
Nothing can take away the time and the memories we had,
Come back - to the days when we were young
Come back - to the days when nothing mattered-avenged sevenfold
Let me go back to the way I was before we met.
Back to the days when I was strong,
When it wasn't sad to be alone,
When I was happy-go-lucky.
And I didn't know how good it felt,
To hold you and feel my heart melt.
-Julie Roberts
We picked up our caps and gowns and all that senior stuff that’s supposed to help us remember the good ole days, but some of the things that you remember the most, can’t be put on paper. That day finally came, and you sat there with all the friends you had made over the years … you looked out at your family and deep down, you knew that this was a once in a lifetime moment. It was the last time in your life that all these people would be together in once place. Yeah, there would be reunions, but there was always the chance that one person wouldn’t make it there. You looked back on your time with these people and realized it was short lived and that it didn’t seem as if there was enough time for everything that you wanted to accomplish … sports, activities, SAT, ACT, and all that good stuff. They called your name, your tassel got turned, and you got a piece of paper that said you were smart. Then you said good-bye … maybe to your town, and that school and your friends. You know that you can go back to visit, but there will be strangers in the halls and it’s not the same. It’s different … you’re different … but it’s not the end. In fact, everything is just the beginning.
There are moments when your life changes. Moments in which there is a look, a touch, a hello, or a conversation. Moments, single moments, when everything changes with no hope of changing back. These moments that lead to a series of events that lead to everything being different, and I mean EVERYTHING. The way you feel, the way you see the world, and yourself, how you act everyday...it changes. It all changes because of single moment, a single happening. You don't plan for it, it just happens, blindsiding you at ten to ten on a monday morning. Something small, like one of those people who are supposed to be a big part of your life walks by for the first time and your eyes meet, and at that moment you can almost hear your familiarty shattering around you, and you can almost feel time stop, and yeah you know, it's one of those moments...
little boy: "do you want to give me your heart?"
little girl: "well do you love me? "
little boy: " of course i love you "
little girl:"well how much do you love me? is it
an m&m's worth of love, and if it is then what
color m&m, i dont want to waste my heart on a
boy that only loves me as much as one of those
yucky brown m&m's he hasta love me at least
a red ...or blue..green maybe&yellow at the least"
little boy: " i love you a thousand red m&m's "
I walked through those doors with a half smile on my face. I walked in expecting to see those "big seniors" shoving through the hallways: laughing, giving each other bad times … I expected to see them taking their last year and absorbing it all. I expected them to look at me and think, "Just another lower classman." I expected to have one or two in my classes, giving the teachers a hard time because they’re a "big senior". I expected to see my senior friends’ faces and to make my last year with them the best that I could. I expected to have a couple more years in this place. If not that, then at least one more. I guess I expected all of the wrong things because I knew that the second I walked through those doors, I had become "a big senior". This is it, my last year of high school, my last year of those homework assignments that I complained about every day of those four years I had been here. Give them back, please, give me back those essays … those book reports … they’ll never compare to the things I’m going to have to face in this real world that isn’t even a year away from hitting me right in the face. Let me keep my friends, please. I’ve been with some of these people since kindergarten. How can it all stop just like that? Better yet, where did it go? How did I let time slip by so fast? Give me time, just let me tell all these people … all of my friends … how much they mean to me. Let me go back to my freshman year, to tell my teachers how much I really did learn. Give me the time to tell them that what they did for not only me … but for everyone else in this place DID make an impact on our lives. Stop. Let me tell all of those people who said, "It’ll go by fast" how right they were. Slow down … just please slow down. How sad it is, to think that the first day of my last year is gone. I can’t bring back the past, but I can make the future a past that I’ll remember … for the rest of my life. After all, I am … a big senior.
And I guess I'm just scared. Scared of everything.
But I do that sometimes. I overanalyze alot of things
that should simply be left alone and I become
terrified of nothing. And I can't help but to be
scared of what might happen now. Because now that
we're both in this thing together...now that I've got you...
I've got something to lose. Cause I've seen relationships
fall apart...and I've seen bonds break with the snap
of a finger. And I'm terrified of losing this wonderful
feeling that I feel whenever I'm around you. I'm not
really sure how to explain it, but you take my breath away.
You really do. And it's the most amazing thing I've
ever known. I know it and I feel it and I feel you, and
it's beautiful. And I don't ever want to lose that.
I don't ever want to lose you. "
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[Wednesday
June 28th, 2006 at 10:21pm] |
You left me before I had a chance to say goodbye, but
that’s the way life usually is, it just passes you by, But
You can't hold on to regrets and you can't look back.
So I'll just be thankful for the times I had with you.
Sometimes they take people, and they don't say why. Sometimes people
leave and never say goodbye. Sometimes there are no second chances
to say i love you, sometimes there are no next times, sometimes you
lose someone and you feel like your heart has followed them to heaven,
sometimes there is just nothing you can do to make the tears stop.
As I lay on the floor and wonder why
The question lingers why did you die
I thank God for you and the memories
But I still wish you were here with me
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[Wednesday
June 14th, 2006 at 11:29pm] |
this year flew by
we are graduating from high school soon
it seems so far
yet so close
dont let anything pass you by
keep your friends close
party all night
make your high school experience worth looking back on
-me
look we are growing up to fast
partying way to late
being place are parents dont know about
doing things we shouldnt be
liking guys we know we shouldnt
look we are growing up
-me
Dance yourself across the floor
One hand slips skip to the next
Create a room full of lustful thoughts
And broken hearts
Try to overcome your weakness
Of a broken heart
Make sure you smile
Act all tough
Play the act
Like a champ
You would get they award for lairs
youre so good at it.
You wear black cause you cant find anything else to wear, You found your sound cause you can't play no better, and you just tried to kiss me cause it just happened? You should try taking credit for something every once in a while."
- Walk The Line
A best friend is someone who screams to
you in the hallways saying, "I LOVE YOU,"
not caring if anyone things they're a lesbian,
only caring that you hear them everytime
We’re all a little weird. &
When we find those people whose
Weirdness is compatible with ours.
We join up with them and call them our
Best Friends
You turned out to be
exactly who I thought you were.
I never pretended to be somebody else.
It's been me all along.
And it was me who was hurt in front of everybody.
I know what it feels like
to be afraid to show who you are.
I was. But not anymore.
And the thing is,
I don't care what people think about me
... because I believe in myself
And I know that things are gonna be okay
a cinderalla story
i don't want the kind of boyfriend
who doesn't want me dancing on tables,
i want the kind of boyfriend who is like
"hell yeah, get my girl another drink!"
i want a guy that doesn't care about
what i wear or how i do my hair.
who loves my smile & my dorky laugh
& how i get hyper when i'm tired.
who would never want to see me cry;
at least not tears of sadness.
and who would do those small things
that make my day
just because he knows it would make me happy
I'm not the prettiest,
I'm always told my best friends are hotter,
I'm not the smartest,
The nerd always gets a grade higher.
But somehow, even when I've just been
put down so bad, you wrap me in your arms,
& I'm okay.
if you dont laugh at yourself
life is going to seem
a lot longer than
you want it to be
There are three things in life that should never be broken;
promises; friendships; && hearts.
so what if we prank call people on friday nights.
so what if we think "yo mamma" jokes are hularious.
why does it matter that we sometimes talk like we're mentally challenged,
and dance like we have to pee.
we're best friends && we love it.
now go ahead and continue with your boring, normal, && oh-so-mature lives
THANK YOU.
i dont think we're
every ready for anything.
sometimes life hands
you lemons when you'd
rather have oranges & your
just expected to make
lemonade
she wanted something else. something different.
something more. passion & romance, perhaps.
or maybe quiet conversations in a candle lit room,
or maybe, it was something as simple as
not always being second in his heart.
I want a guy that I can go to
with mascara running down my face
and the first thing he says is
"Who's ass am I kickin?!"
All I can say
I should of said
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
Work- Jimmy Eat World
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[Monday
May 29th, 2006 at 10:37pm] |
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun, then you grow up and learn to be cautious; you could break a bone, or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there is no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
Know all about
About your reputation
And how it's bound to be a heartbreak situation
But I can't help it if I'm helpless
Every time that I'm where you are
You walk in and my strength walks out the door
Say my name and I can't fight it anymore
Oh I know, I should go
But I need your touch just too damn much
Loving you isn't really something I should do
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you
That I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
i need the warm evening breezes,
the twilight holding me in its arms,
the possibilities of two months of summer
that have the chance to change my life
all of this anticipation
is simply over seeing you again;
knowing that one last time
i can prove i'm not the same little girl who left you
i wonder if i'll ever be satisfied
with my own self, my own life
it's a horrible feeling
to say goodbye to someone
who has no idea what they mean to you
hearts once bound together
silently, effortlessly pulled apart;
i watch our lives unwind,
&& all i can do is wonder why
i'm scared...
scared of what's happening,
scared of what's coming next,
but most of all scared of
losing everything that's already been
so whats next ?
We'll pass each other by
and exchange glances?
But dont speak to
each other because
we're both afraid of taking
CHANCES?
I'm just a summer girl
I wear my flip flops
Who needs a boyfriend
I got my girlfriends
When we get together
The summer never ends
And the parties begin..
athere's nothinn like
the summertime baby
it's just something that happens as you grow up you realize that it's less important to have more friendsa© & it's more important to have real ones
let`s try to make it last this time,
&& prove them all wrong <3
SuMMeR 2006*
| | | * SCHOOLS OUT; SNEAKING OUT * | | |
| | *HOT BOYS; TANLINES; LATENIGHTS* | |
| *BEST FRIENDS; SWIMMING POOLS;SUN* |
* THE THINGS YOU NEVER WANT TO END *
LIVE for those moments when you
least expect the most wonderful
thing to actually happena
bring on the flipflops
cute tops, NO SOCKS, pool time, sunshine,
sunglasses, beachpasses, best friends ,new revenge,
tan lines, cute guys, pillow fights, late nights, have fun
SUMMER 0H SIX HERE i C0ME
Oh, don't worry about her.
She's always upset.
She's always in love with someone who doesn't love her back.
She's always heartbroken so she's fine.
She’s used to it by now.
It always rains the hardest on people who deserve the sun
For once in her life, she wants someone
to take a chance with her so she can show
them, she could really be worth it
Have you ever wanted to run away?
Just to see if anyone will come after you?
The cracks in the concrete
are just reminders that someday;
you'll fall apart
no matter how strong you are
Another poem, another line, another girl pretending she's fine,
Another hour, another day, she wishes she could get away,
Another heartbreak, another tear, another excuse she doesn't want to hear
Another paper, another pen, she writes she wants to be strong again,
Another story, another lie, another night that she will cry,
Another band, another song, another days passed, slowly gone,
Another scream, another doubt, ''Kick me while I'm down'' to him she'd shout
Another forced smile, another broken heart, Just another girl wishing life would restart...
She was a girl
who knew how to act
happy, even when she
was sad - and that's important
"He's got that nervous laugh,
Same as me.
I kind of adore him for it."
- Peri Smith -
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[Wednesday
March 8th, 2006 at 9:08pm] |
where’s that boy that listens to
everything i have to say?
where is he…
i need to tell him so many things,
&& he’s been gone for too long.
school is still the same. there's still that one guy that you get up and go to school for in the morning. the one with the mysterious confidence that every girl falls for. those years of school wouldn't have been the same without him. i wouldn't have been the same without him. -- NEVER BEEN KiSSED
i really can't deny it. i am who i am.
i'm pretty normal. i'm not that smooth
type of girl. i run into things. i trip. i spill
food. i say stupid things. i really don't
have it all together .
-- katie homles
maybe i'm not meant to get over him ..
i mean look at how many times i've tried.
maybe it's not working for a reason.
as we grow up there`s going to be many things that
we don`t like. hook-ups that mean so much to one
person && nothing to the other. girls who like the
same guy you like ;; you`ll meet new -- people who
may matter more than others might.. but the one guy
who stays by you till the end will be the one.
&& when it comes to you, i wish i didn`t
care so much because it would make things so
much easier. but i do care
There are some memories that we will carry with us for the rest
of our lives and some things that we choose to forget but when
we look back at those experiences, we`ll see our friends ; the
ones who got us through everything and we`ll realize how lucky
we are to have them .
love is sitting together in the middle of
a couch, when there is plenty of room
on either side
you were there for me for so many years
making me laugh while i was in tears
i will never let anyone take your place
because you`re the best friend I`ve got
you laugh at my stupid jokes;;
put up with my worst moods;;
go along with my crazy ideas
&& you still manage to see the best in me
We are not perfect. We laugh too hard
& are way too loud. We make complete fools
out of ourselves, but doing this together
makes us best friends forever.
years of friendship && nothing to doubt
endless memories; too many to count
laughter, lies & & stupid fights.
shes my best friend. my heart. my life
take out your fake ids and your fake smiles tonight
we're going into the city lets give them
something to be jealous of.
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[Monday
March 6th, 2006 at 9:33pm] |
& in the mornings; she doesn't care
her heart is just no longer there -
she's trying so hard to be herself
but all she's worrying about is everyone else
id rather be crying over i boy that i have
then crying over i boy that i never will
-me
you always get the boy.
when im wishing that i could.
-me
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[Thursday
March 2nd, 2006 at 3:05pm] |
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The heart may freeze or it can burn
The pain will ease if I can learn
There is no future, there is no past
i live this moment as my last.
-Rent
Life should not be measured
By how many breaths you take
But by how many moments
take your breath away.
Wanting him is hard to get,
Loving him is hard to regret,
Losing him is hard to accept,
But with all the hurt I've felt
letting go is the most painful yet.
we drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
its close to paradise,
with the end surely near.
and if i could only stop the car
and hold onto you,
and never let go
i'll never let go
come out and kiss me, darling
I promise I'll kiss you back.
I might be a fool, you might be one too
Maybe we're all that we needed.
Two wrongs don't make a right, but I don't care tonight.
Maybe we're all that we needed.
tell me its real
the feeling that we feel
tell me that its real
dont love come
just to pass us by
try is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love
last forever more
Let's start over. Let's forget all our problems. Let's put our past
behind us and never bring it up again. We can't live or love the
past. Let's throw all our problems away. I'll give you my trust, if
you give me yours. Baby, let's fall in love
& I guess you're the proof that when you finally
let go of the past, something better comes along ..
Fate has a way of changing things just when you don't want it to
I don’t know what it is about you,
Maybe it’s the way nothing else mattes when we’re talking
Or it might be how you make me smile more than anyone ever has
It could be the way you say
the exact right thing at the exact right time
But whatever it is,
I just want you to know it means everything to me
Do you ever put your arms out
and just spin and spin and spin?
Well, that's what love's like.
Everything inside you is telling to to stop
before you fall
But for some reason, you just keep going.
Why can’t we get all the people together
in the world that we really like and then
just stay together? I guess that wouldn’t
work. Someone would leave. Someone
always leaves and then we have to say
good-bye. I hate good - byes. I know
what I need. I need more hellos.
Snoopy
Let's face it... we've changed. We all changed. Somewhere between summer ending and school starting, we've all gone in our own directions. Hearts were broken, friends diminished, new love started and new people came into our lives. We no longer spend all of our time in our circle of friends, we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. We've changed -- some for the better, some for the worse. Some of us are finding love and others are trying to let go. Even though we've changed, we all know that even though we're all finding our own place in the world, that when we find out love, when we let go of a love, when the tears fall, or the happy smile spreads across our face... we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us and no matter what happens, nothing will ever change so much to the point that we're not all friends forever
I lie awake at night just thinking about "us." I try not to cry, but that's all I can do because I remember how we used to say we'd be best friends forever and that we'd go through High School together. But, now I know that will never happen and I guess it just sort of hurts. It's like I've lost a part of me -- my other half and I know I'll never get it back
You’ve labeled your whole lifestyle and changed the way you dress. Now take a good look in the mirror and tell me who you’re trying to impress
Best Friends are the most important part of your life. Treasure the tears, treasure the laughter, but most importantly, treasure the memories.
Rocky periods in friendships tend to be like broken bones - painful & debilitating, but once healed, make the relationship stronger than ever. Allowing yourself to be vulnerable and speak out when you notice something wrong in a friendship requires courage and commitment. Sometimes it helps to look at all that you and your friend have in common and all that you stand to lose without each other. It's never too late to try to clear up a sore spot in a relationship.
When the broken hearts are mended and the many tears are dried, you learn. When you're over the old boyfriends and the old girlfriends and you realize that you can live without your first love, you learn. You see that the world doesn't end just because you think it will, and that sometimes growing up means letting go. You learn what real love is, and you begin to see that one friend who really cares is better than a hundred friends who don't. You learn that you can be strong, take each day step-by-step, and survive every sad moment. So feel the pain and cry the tears, go out and experience life. But when you're at the end of your rope, and you're ready to jump off that ledge, remember that heartaches fades, pain subsides, and though life seems at times too tough to handle, it's also too precious a gift to waste. Keep on living, never give up, and remember: As you grow, you learn.
We may lose and we may win, though
we will never be here again. ,,* Eagles
I guess I'm not prepared to say good-bye, so long,
farewell, I won't be seeing you again
im scared you will forget me
im not good at goodbyes
so dont say goodbye
say ill see you later.
-me'
We laughed until we had to cry, we loved right
down to our last goodbye
Soon all the joy that pours from everything
makes fountains of your eyes because you
finally understand the movement of a
hand waving goodbye ~Conor Oberst
Sometimes we need to hold our heads up high,
blink the tears away and just say good-bye.
We said our good-byes and when you were almost gone, you
turned and gave me one more look the look that said it all.
Everything was going to be okay
We laughed as they said we wouldn’t want to
leave … we cried when they said we had to go
The people you care about you never really say good-bye to
How do I say good-bye to what we had, the good times
that made us laugh outweigh the bad. I thought we’d
get to see forever, but forever’s gone away. It’s so hard
to say good-bye to yesterday.
i guess you could say im lucky
that i have someone who makes
saying goodbye so hard
I’m glad we had the times together just to laugh and sing a
song, seems like we just got started and then before you
know it, the times we had together were gone. ~ Dr. Suess
We attach ourselves so strongly to people that when they're
gone, a part of us is gone too. I’ll never find anyone to
replace you, guess I’ll have to make it through this time without you.
I want to remember how you’ve made me laugh, and sometimes cry, and I never want to forget how special and different you are. And how you touch my heart in a way that no one else ever could
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[Sunday
February 26th, 2006 at 10:18pm] |
wow its already over.
yestrday was a bunch of emoitions put into about one hour.
the senoir speeches were pretty good.
the performance was amazing...as usual.
the after glow was when the tears came.
we watched a slide show that seano joe and matt put together
as we were watching it memories flashed through everyones heads
at the end i started to tear up as well as probably 75% of the cast.
when we all went on stage and they started to talk everyone around me
was balling their eyes out.
when i looked around at these people i had gotten to know.
i did as well. it was weird.. i know im only a stupid freshman and i have a while till i leave
but i dont get to see you everyday like everyone else. thats what got me.
when we all squished together in the middle of the stage
the mads held hands and sang a song.
i think thats about when everyone lost it.
i was histarical. i couldnt look at anyone with out wanting to cry even harder
then they all did reverance and i was on the side. crying so hard i could hardly breathe.
i looked around at everyone sobbing there way through the dance
after that i first hugged alex and i cried harder.
then i hugged raquel...i cried even harder...if that was even possiable.
its so hard to leave them.
its hard to leave everyone
after all the tears... we partyed!!!!
the party was pretty much amazing... wink tag... hells yeah!
my first victum... alex! yeah we had to do a rematch cause im kinda retarded.
then..steve!..yeah i dont know what to say about that one lol
then...nick. sorry if i broke your arm!
then there was a bit of problems... im not gonna say anything but if you were there you know what im talking about.
watched zoolander
tried to sleep... didnt work.
me maria and alex had a spaceship!!!!
rob drove me home at 8:30 in the morning
i slept till 2
so i got like 6 hours of sleep... grrr
"the boyfriend" cast and crew have become a family to me.
i was there everyday after school for so long i dont really know what to do with myself after school anymore.
i love you all sooo much!
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[Thursday
February 23rd, 2006 at 10:48pm] |
yeah thats alex with make up on
katie trying to put lipstick on david.
and this is tom.. with his creepy mask
MIMES!
sam! being ghetto!
CREW!!
Nick...yawning?
random shot.
girls singing SPICE GIRLS!
Meghan and Kristen!
Alex and Sarah sword fighting with pencils!
Alex was hiding from nate...
creepy stairs in the lights booth
Nick! at our hiding spot!
GREG!
Me and Raquel!
Raquel and Taylor!
um i dont know
Katie doing nicks make up
nates finger, me and nick
seano and joe!
everyone going insane.
sam and nick!
me and raquel!
taylor and me!
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me and my costuem bitch.. jessica!
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[Tuesday
February 21st, 2006 at 8:02pm] |
Because in her world, tomorrow is never promised
because people never stay around that long
she has no fear
she'll do anything for a good time..
but when it comes to him
she's weak & scared.
alot of people have their own ideas
as to what defeat looks like
my defeat? well it was
meeting a boy that i fell for
&& realizing i could never have him.
suck in my stomach
pinch my waist
spend hours touching up my ugly face
all these things i fucking do
don't make a difference
i'm not perfect enough for you
I bet:
You'll never remember
The things I'll never forget.
Snapshots of priceless moments cover her walls.
She thinks back to a time where she didn't have to fake a smile.
It just graced her face naturally.
Back then life was so worth living.
Now she thinks it's not worth anything
Why not pretend to love she thinks
Why not pretend to live she thinks
She's dead inside.
come out and kiss me, darling
I promise I'll kiss you back.
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[Sunday
February 19th, 2006 at 7:39pm] |
BEST FRiEND -- the person that no matter how long
it`s been since you`ve talked or seen each other, we
can call each other no matter the time of day & pick
up where we left off.
yeah your stupid mistakes.
caused my heart to break.
sometimes we put up walls
not to block people out
but to see who cares enough
to break them down.
Most girls say they want a fairy tale, but you taught me that it's not really what I want.
I want someone who will make fun of me & laugh at my jokes even if they aren't funny;
Someone that wrestles with me and doesn't let me win just because im a girl.
Yeah, riding off into the sunset on a white horse would be nice...
but playing thumb war with you seems so much better.
you dont choose who you fall in love with
you just do . . & you get this person who
is so wrong, yet so right at the same time
you know that you love them so much . .
except sometimes they drive you completely
insane and no one can explain it . the reason
its so confusing is because its love. & if
you didnt have any challenges, what would
be the point of love?
life is made up of years
that meant nothing && the
moments that meant it all
smile for the camera
you look so pretty
pretending nothings wrong.
i would rather be known as the girl;
who lived her life the way she wanted too.
than the bitch who wasted her
precious time, more concerned about you
everytime i want to give up on him
theres always something inside
telling me to just give it time
Be yourself
who gives a fuck
what others think of you
sometimes when you grow attached to someone
you start to become afriad because that's when
you realize; you have something to lose.
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[Friday
February 17th, 2006 at 10:45pm] |
and we'll linger on..
time can't erase a feeling this strong.
no way you're never gonna shake me,
ooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby..
Yeah, she’s smiling.
Smiling brightly. Too brightly.
Can’t you see it’s fake?
She does this for you. FOR YOU.
She knows how you worry.
So she plasters that smile on her face
Every morning with her makeup,
So that you don’t know
How she’s breaking inside.
I don’t want to admit it.
But it was easier to lie;
To hide the hurt & emptiness
And to smile
Instead of cry.
this is a girl whose been through so much& yet, still finds a way to smile at the past ; she still loves with all her heart or whats left of it.and when you see her walk down the hall, i can guarntee you she'll have her head up high faking a smile just one last time at all those who try & break her but never will.
A true friend is one who thinks you’re a good egg,even if they know you’re slightly cracked.
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